Hello, my name is Jessi and I am a dreamer.
Raise your hand if that’s you too. I knew it, I knew I wasn’t the only one! I bet you’ve felt just like I have at some point (maybe even every day), that you’re meant for more. I love my kids and I love being a stay-at-home mom, or rather I should say I love the idea of being a stay-at-home mom. I really do love being with my kids, but so many times I find myself bored or grumpy because I feel like I’m never going to achieve my dreams in the midst of the never-ending laundry, dishes, and diapers.
Maybe it’s just me, but the first time I watched Moana I cried like a baby. I’m talking streams of tears down my cheeks sobbing. I felt so… so… understood. Now, I know the Disney giants want us to feel just like that (and let’s just take a second to appreciate the power of their storytelling abilities… remarkable) but this movie struck something in the core of my being that nothing else ever has. So let’s take a look at those moments today, shall we?
***Spoilers Ahead!!! If you haven’t seen Moana yet, stop right now and watch it! I’ll even give you the link to it: Watch Moana here. Ready now? You may proceed!***
6 Times Moana Said (or Sang) Exactly What I Feel
1. I’ll be satisfied if I play along / But the voice inside sings a different song / What is wrong with me?
How many times have you heard the phrase ‘fake it til you make it’? I don’t know when I heard it first, but in the early days after both my babies, it was like a chant; Fake it, you’ll make it. The idea behind it is that acting happy about your circumstances will eventually result in true happiness. I definitely think there is some truth to that, however, other times you just gotta move on, try something else, or ask for help.
When Moana stands on the top of the mountain and cries out to the wind, “What is wrong with me?” it was like my heart rose with her. Thankfully, the truth, and the point of the movie, is that nothing is wrong with me. Just like nothing is wrong with you. We don’t all fit one mold or one lifestyle and that’s more than okay, that’s good. Embrace who you are and dance to the music inside.
2. Every turn I take / Every trail I track / Is a choice I make / Now I can’t turn back / From the great unknown / Where I go alone / Where I long to be
Moana sings this haunting line as she sets sail from her home all on her own (and with her mother’s blessing — I love that!!!) She’s setting out to finally answer this call she’s felt for her whole life, despite her father’s disapproval. Now, I’m all about respecting my parents and I was decently good at it growing up and still today. However, her father’s rules were based on fear, not on Moana’s best interest (see #6).
This line resonates with me so much because I didn’t go to college right after high school like literally everyone expected of me. Instead, I joined Youth With A Mission (YWAM) and moved to England on my own. I remember talking to God about it and I knew He meant me to stand alone, that this was a journey that only I could take and only I was meant to take. Some things in life are like that. We don’t get to go into holding the hand of someone else because if we did we’d miss out on some incredible personal development. So if you prefer to wear your baby in a sling 24/7 and so-and-so is telling you not to, do it! You do you, Mama!
3. They have stolen the heart from inside you / But this does not define you / This is not who you are / You know who you are
No one else can define who you are. That is up to you and you alone, Mama. Whether we’re talking parenting, career, life, or anything else, you know who you are. I spent a lot of my life struggling to know who I was meant to be. And the incredible thing I’m coming to realize now, in year 30, is that I already am who I’m meant to be. I just keep trying to force myself to fit in a mold that someone else sets for me. You know who you are.
4. And the call isn’t out there at all / It’s inside me / It’s like the tide, always falling and rising
This one… Gosh. Just thinking about this line again makes my heart kind of twist inside my chest. Like I said in the last one, this year I’ve finally started to settle into my identity and let myself be who I’ve always been. For so long, I thought my soul would rest if I could just land on that ‘thing’ I was meant to be doing. But, like Moana, I have learned that it’s not something out there. It’s my heart, right here, telling me to be me. If that’s you too, Mama, let it go (not to mix movie references here…) and be who you are.
5. All the time wondering where I need to be / Is behind me / I’m on my own / To worlds unknown
I don’t know what the future holds. I thought next year would be spent traveling the U.S. with my kids and hubby in an RV, but it’s looking now like I might be teaching middle school science instead. (I’ll let you know when I know for sure!) And I’ve found that like is like that more often than not. We make our plans and hold to these arbitrary expectations and then life happens, opportunities open up, things shift and we’re suddenly heading in another direction. Rather than get side-tracked and constantly question whether I’m doing what I’m supposed to be doing, I’ve learned to embrace the change. I know who I am, what I do is just that: what I do. My activities don’t define who I am any more than what I had for lunch does.
6. Mind what he says but remember / You may hear a voice inside / And if the voice starts to whisper / To follow the farthest star / Moana, that voice inside is / Who you are
Okay, this one wasn’t Moana at all, but Gramma Tala. First, can I be real? I want to be just like Gramma Tala when I grow up. For real. That woman is the real hero of Moana. She is fearlessly true to herself. She loves her family deeply and isn’t afraid to stand up for what she believes to be right. On top of all that, she sees Moana for who she is, not for who she thinks Moana should be, and Gramma Tala gives Moana the tools she needs to be true to herself without labeling her according to what she sees in Moana. There is a balance in seeing a strength in someone and forcing them into a box according to that perceived strength.
What Would You Add?
Were there other moments from Moana which really resonated with you? I’d love to hear them in the comments!